Creating Identity Panel Discussion

Commission on the Status of Gender and Sexual Identities Author

12/03/2020 Added

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Join us for an exciting panel discussion as we look at what it means to create one’s own identity through the lens of intersectionality. Our panel will bring together a diverse group of perspectives from across the university. Our panel will be moderated by Pat Tetreault, Director of the LGTBTQ+ and Women’s Centers and includes: - Timothy Shaffert, Professor, Department of English - Derrick Gulley, Program Coordinator, LGTBTQ+ and Women’s Centers - Emily Cheramie, Student, Department of English - Gary Kebbel, Professor, Department of Journalism and Mass Communications

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[00:00:00.350]Of all the panelists.
[00:00:01.490]And then I'm gonna turn it over
[00:00:03.240]to the panelists who will all do
[00:00:05.960]a more in depth or extended introduction for themselves.
[00:00:11.400]And then we'll open it up to a Q and A.
[00:00:14.410]So our first guest is Timothy Schaffert,
[00:00:18.047]who is professor in the Department of English.
[00:00:21.800]He's also the, and Women and Gender Studies,
[00:00:27.170]and also the Director of the Creative Writing Program.
[00:00:30.520]His sixth novel, "The Perfume Thief,"
[00:00:32.890]will be released in August and is based on his research
[00:00:36.500]into the queer resistant fighters of World War II Paris.
[00:00:39.970]I actually really enjoyed
[00:00:41.270]getting everybody's bios and reading them.
[00:00:43.520]So I also learned things.
[00:00:46.750]Derrick Gulley is originally from Omaha.
[00:00:52.840]He's also called UNL his home for the last six years.
[00:00:57.730]And during this time, Derrick
[00:00:59.220]has received a Bachelor's Degree
[00:01:00.990]in Human Development and Family Studies,
[00:01:03.700]and most recently a Master of Art
[00:01:05.580]in Educational Administration
[00:01:07.290]with a specialization in Higher Education Student Affairs.
[00:01:12.500]Derrick has 10 years of event planning experience
[00:01:16.250]and loves to create new exciting ways to engage students,
[00:01:20.490]and Derrick identifies as a gay man
[00:01:22.600]and uses he, him, his pronouns,
[00:01:25.530]and is the Program Coordinator
[00:01:27.770]at the LGBTQA Plus and the Women's Centers.
[00:01:32.360]Emily Cheramie is a student athlete on the rifle team
[00:01:36.250]and is also captain.
[00:01:38.220]She's a senior English major
[00:01:40.300]and a member of the Chancellor's Commission
[00:01:42.210]on the Status of Gender and Sexual Identities.
[00:01:45.150]And there is a list of awards on the webpage.
[00:01:49.370]So I'm just gonna share a couple of them with you.
[00:01:53.160]Emily holds the school record
[00:01:55.610]for the highest air rifle score
[00:01:58.270]and is also a Big 10 Distinguished Scholar.
[00:02:01.250]So I'm just gonna stop there.
[00:02:04.464]And then Gary Kebbel, professor Department of Journalism
[00:02:09.040]and Mass Communications is also
[00:02:11.980]a former dean in the college.
[00:02:14.290]He's a founding editor of usatoday.com and newsweek.com
[00:02:19.660]and was a homepage editor of washingtonpost.com.
[00:02:23.540]He's also news director at AOL.
[00:02:26.410]So Dr. Kebbel is a two-time Fulbright Senior Specialist
[00:02:32.250]and worked in South Africa and Ethiopia.
[00:02:35.600]So welcome panelists, and,
[00:02:39.620]you can start in whatever order,
[00:02:41.310]but you could also go in the order that I introduced you
[00:02:44.170]just to make things easier.
[00:02:45.660]So maybe Timothy, if you wanna go first?
[00:02:50.470]Sure, as you mentioned, I have a novel coming out
[00:02:54.270]that's based on, it's set in 1941 in Paris.
[00:02:58.720]And although I didn't really begin as research
[00:03:01.840]into the queer resistance movement,
[00:03:03.810]I discovered it in the process,
[00:03:06.070]because the main narrator is a queer woman.
[00:03:09.980]And so that's been fascinating to learn more about,
[00:03:15.500]about how the tradition of historical homophobia
[00:03:20.305](voice cutting out) gays during the war as collaborators,
[00:03:27.110]as being so sort of impressed and influenced
[00:03:31.030]by the manly masculineness,
[00:03:34.984]masculinity of the invading forces.
[00:03:38.350]But in reality, there are any number of stories
[00:03:40.890]of queer people who were,
[00:03:46.010]who fought against the Nazis and succeeded in various ways.
[00:03:48.950]And a lot of that research is coming to light,
[00:03:52.140]and actually since the time that I even started the novel.
[00:03:55.520]So I've been working on that.
[00:03:57.780]And then also on a graphic novel about,
[00:04:00.504]I've been working with two Black gay cartoonists
[00:04:05.120]on a graphic novel about the Black gay cartoonist Matt Baker
[00:04:10.210]from the 1950s, who was a pioneering cartoonist,
[00:04:13.980]sort of lost to history who died at the age of 39.
[00:04:17.440]And so those are the projects that I'm working on.
[00:04:24.300]Thank you.
[00:04:25.300]Derrick?
[00:04:29.890]Just a quick little update about myself,
[00:04:33.330]where I'm at in life?
[00:04:34.780]Cool.
[00:04:36.040]So like Pat said, I'm from Omaha, Nebraska.
[00:04:40.370]I grew up in North Omaha and went to a small private
[00:04:50.200]Catholic elementary school
[00:04:53.700]from pre-K through eighth grade,
[00:04:56.520]which really then kind of shaped my identity
[00:05:00.360]as a queer person of color,
[00:05:04.440]and how I, through high school and undergrad
[00:05:09.140]kind of navigated both religious (voice cutting out)
[00:05:12.802]and queer spaces, especially here at UNL.
[00:05:17.530]I started working for the LGBTQA Resource Center
[00:05:20.800]rather early on as a freshman.
[00:05:25.010]It was like the third week when I started working there.
[00:05:28.120]So it was automatically, I was kind of out in open
[00:05:32.460]as a gay man on campus,
[00:05:35.540]which of course has its benefits, loved what I did
[00:05:39.890]and the work that we were doing,
[00:05:42.980]but also had its challenges dealing with
[00:05:45.260]maybe some classmates that weren't so accepting or open,
[00:05:48.773]or even some faculty members.
[00:05:51.956]And then moving on into grad school,
[00:05:56.780]and still representing the community,
[00:05:59.770]but doing it more within events.
[00:06:04.060]And now as a full-time faculty member or staff member,
[00:06:09.600]looking into a PhD program or a PhD programs
[00:06:14.680]to explore the faculty side of things and looking how,
[00:06:18.700]which programs are more inclusive
[00:06:20.750]to the LGBTQA community or students of color in general.
[00:06:27.830]So it's an interesting group (indistinct).
[00:06:31.940]Thank you.
[00:06:33.460]Emily.
[00:06:35.570]Yeah, thank you, Pat,
[00:06:36.670]for the wonderful introduction.
[00:06:39.010]And hi everybody, thanks for coming out tonight.
[00:06:40.860]And I hope everyone's doing well.
[00:06:42.600]So my name's Emily Cheramie.
[00:06:44.360]I'm a senior on the rifle team, like Pat said.
[00:06:47.320]I'm studying English and with minors in
[00:06:50.090]Math, Art, and Women and Gender Studies.
[00:06:52.130]So kind of running the gambit on everything.
[00:06:55.587]But I grew up in the South.
[00:06:57.170]I grew up in Georgetown, Kentucky,
[00:06:59.640]playing about every sport you could ever imagine
[00:07:02.270]before finally settling on shooting sports.
[00:07:06.500]And like Derrick, I actually went to Catholic school
[00:07:09.049]through middle school, through high school actually.
[00:07:11.420]So that's been a big part of my life
[00:07:12.930]is trying to rationalize that aspect of growing up
[00:07:16.940]in a religious conservative household
[00:07:20.080]and my identity as a gay woman in that space,
[00:07:23.810]as well as within athletics,
[00:07:26.060]because it's not necessarily
[00:07:28.490]the most accepting place.
[00:07:29.900]It's getting better, I'd say.
[00:07:32.520]A lot of places are making leaps and bounds in terms of
[00:07:35.090]acceptance and programs to help athletes find a space,
[00:07:39.107]which is something we're really invested in now,
[00:07:42.040]actually, is that this year we are forming
[00:07:45.520]at Nebraska is student athlete LGBTQ group.
[00:07:49.530]So that's, we just had our first meeting.
[00:07:52.045]It was really awesome to see other athletes
[00:07:54.530]and just create a space for us to exist
[00:07:57.240]and find that community with each other in a typical,
[00:08:01.740]typically almost kind of toxic environment
[00:08:04.760]for people in the LGBTQ community within athletics.
[00:08:09.220]So that's been really great.
[00:08:11.330]As well as hopefully
[00:08:13.510]working with other Big 10 schools
[00:08:15.420]to form a bigger collective so that our voices can be heard
[00:08:18.860]within the conference.
[00:08:21.070]So that's been really fun.
[00:08:22.660]We're working with Wisconsin right now,
[00:08:24.330]and they've been really great to work with.
[00:08:27.210]So that's the plans for the future.
[00:08:30.290]So still working.
[00:08:34.750]Thank you.
[00:08:36.170]Gary.
[00:08:37.560]Hi everybody, yeah, I'm Gary Kebbel,
[00:08:39.960]and I'm a gay professor
[00:08:41.260]in the College of Journalism and Mass Communications.
[00:08:46.225]And I, frankly, I've been really nervous
[00:08:50.420]about this panel because unlike so many people,
[00:08:55.700]I don't have a particular job that is
[00:08:58.640]focused on sexual identity or focused on intersectionality
[00:09:02.240]or focused on it in my,
[00:09:04.740]so directly in my professional career as so many others are.
[00:09:09.070]And I was asking myself, so what do I bring to this?
[00:09:15.370]And I think, as I wrestled around
[00:09:19.500]and fretted all day about it,
[00:09:21.730]I think what I bring to this is just
[00:09:23.960]the attempt to figure out how do we wrestle
[00:09:32.080]with all these, with identities and intersectionality
[00:09:36.350]because
[00:09:38.320]we all have so many, many, many identities,
[00:09:41.450]and therefore so many competing loyalties
[00:09:44.940]that I'm, I think, probably stupidly looking for advice
[00:09:50.400]and help and rules on how do I decide
[00:09:54.790]whether today I'm a male holding a job,
[00:10:00.440]making sure that that my spouse and my kids have food
[00:10:06.060]and medical care
[00:10:09.420]or is today the day that I'm a gay male holding that?
[00:10:11.920]Or is today the day that I'm
[00:10:14.540]really ticked off at all of that?
[00:10:16.560]And we go on and on and how,
[00:10:21.970]I'm trying to figure out how we,
[00:10:25.550]we deal with deciding what our identities are at the moment.
[00:10:33.480]And if that's destructive, I mean,
[00:10:35.650]should we instead have an identity
[00:10:39.660]that we cling onto and nurture and grow and say that's me
[00:10:44.850]in all cases, or is it healthier to try to say
[00:10:51.410]every day's a new day, and we'll see
[00:10:54.730]what identity I have to deal with today.
[00:10:56.590]I honestly don't know.
[00:10:58.410]And I'm hoping that that might be a topic of discussion.
[00:11:05.470]Thank you.
[00:11:08.800]I did put a few questions together,
[00:11:11.580]so I'm just gonna start with one,
[00:11:13.720]but if there's anybody in the audience who has questions
[00:11:16.790]you should feel free to post those into chat,
[00:11:19.610]and then we'll share those.
[00:11:25.220]One of the things that comes up is there,
[00:11:29.530]we all have multiple intersecting
[00:11:32.050]and some of us have mixed identities as well.
[00:11:35.150]And we probably don't always think about
[00:11:37.560]all of the identities we carry around.
[00:11:40.260]Although, I have to say,
[00:11:41.440]I also went to a small Catholic school.
[00:11:45.060]And so that's one of the primary identities
[00:11:48.580]that I carry with me is that had a big impact on me.
[00:11:53.740]So I think we have a lot of
[00:11:57.530]primary and secondary identities.
[00:11:59.970]They're not always the identities that
[00:12:03.200]people think about, like race or sex or gender or ability.
[00:12:10.150]But I think there's lots of things,
[00:12:11.610]like Emily being growing up in the South
[00:12:14.520]or Eric growing up in the Midwest.
[00:12:17.720]I, having moved, and been in a military family,
[00:12:22.280]I know when I moved from the Southwest
[00:12:24.420]where I spent most of my growing up, I had culture shock.
[00:12:29.750]And so there's so many things that impact our identities
[00:12:33.947]and our experiences, and they interact together.
[00:12:38.000]Are there identities that any of you see
[00:12:41.460]as being more primary and others being more secondary?
[00:12:45.990]Or how do you conceptualize all your identities?
[00:12:54.240]Well, I mean, I could start.
[00:12:56.620]And this also sort of picks up
[00:12:58.420]on what Gary was saying, too, I think.
[00:13:00.380]I mean, I feel like, when I think about identity,
[00:13:02.540]there are a couple of different avenues for me.
[00:13:04.890]There's the very personal, intuitive sense of myself,
[00:13:07.640]and what categories I fall under
[00:13:10.230]and what affects me and my life.
[00:13:12.917]And that's can sometimes feel like it's ever shifting
[00:13:16.230]or completely being revised
[00:13:19.760]and reconsidered at any given minute.
[00:13:22.410]And then there's the avenue of
[00:13:24.390]what you put out in the world,
[00:13:25.620]how you externalize that, I guess.
[00:13:28.030]And how, whether that be for relationships
[00:13:33.150]or for professional development or for political reasons,
[00:13:37.880]that becomes the thing that becomes kind of written down,
[00:13:41.700]the identity that proceeds you, I guess,
[00:13:44.980]in those situations.
[00:13:46.280]And so, I don't know.
[00:13:47.880]I mean, so there's the kind of
[00:13:52.450]all the emotional component
[00:13:55.540]of trying to figure out where all of my personal experience
[00:13:59.250]and how all of that plays in my own sense of self,
[00:14:03.190]going way back to, I mean,
[00:14:04.290]I grew up on a farm in Nebraska,
[00:14:10.333]in the middle of Nebraska in the 1970s.
[00:14:12.920]And I mean, I,
[00:14:14.380]people would tell me that I looked like a girl,
[00:14:17.220]that I acted like a girl,
[00:14:19.640]and my feeling at the time was like, well, yeah, okay.
[00:14:22.230]So how am I not a girl?
[00:14:25.000]So that informed my sense of self
[00:14:28.840]versus how other people saw me as I grew older.
[00:14:31.660]And in the last couple of years
[00:14:36.030]I've thought more also about the role of illness
[00:14:38.490]and how that's affected my life
[00:14:39.940]and how that's become part of my identity as well,
[00:14:42.760]in terms of what I choose to write about,
[00:14:46.780]what I choose to research, how I teach.
[00:14:51.270]In reflection, that's been a large part of who I am,
[00:14:54.040]from the time I was a little kid.
[00:14:56.136]So, yeah, so there's,
[00:14:59.444]perhaps a somewhat muddled response, but.
[00:15:07.780]Does anyone else on the panel want or have
[00:15:11.130]anything to add about primary and secondary identities?
[00:15:19.260]At least for me, in terms of my primary identities,
[00:15:22.590]that I really focus on,
[00:15:24.930]a lot of it is being a student athlete,
[00:15:27.260]but that's because it's what takes up my time.
[00:15:30.350]I think that's what we think about a lot is,
[00:15:33.270]who are we in this moment?
[00:15:34.360]And what is consuming us and taking up our time?
[00:15:39.350]Are we parents?
[00:15:41.120]What is our job title?
[00:15:42.730]How is that affecting us?
[00:15:45.690]And where are we putting our energies?
[00:15:48.280]But I think what I've been trying to do recently
[00:15:51.040]is move into different aspects of my life to
[00:15:56.640]really step up in what I wanna do in my advocacy work
[00:16:00.920]in supporting my friends in MSAC
[00:16:03.090]and trying to push our administration,
[00:16:05.730]our athletic administration to be better
[00:16:07.500]and help them in any way that I can.
[00:16:10.540]And also, help form this LGBTQ group that
[00:16:14.900]I'm really dedicated about and passionate about.
[00:16:18.380]So that's another aspect and identities
[00:16:21.740]is trying to be that good advocate,
[00:16:24.050]and that's definitely something I've dedicated more time to.
[00:16:27.140]And so it's becoming more of a primary identity
[00:16:29.730]versus something that was always kind of there,
[00:16:33.030]but definitely more of a secondary identity,
[00:16:35.540]in terms of who I am, especially publicly.
[00:16:40.530]I also had the parochial school upbringing.
[00:16:43.580]Mine was Lutheran.
[00:16:45.030]And,
[00:16:47.900]I would say, probably because of that,
[00:16:50.210]probably because of my family,
[00:16:51.710]I think one of my primary identities
[00:16:53.930]is thinking of myself as
[00:16:56.610]at least trying to be the best moral person I can be.
[00:17:01.800]And that brings me sometimes pleasure
[00:17:06.290]and sometimes great grief in terms of
[00:17:08.620]the conflicts that it can create.
[00:17:11.040]And it's a gigantic identity that overlays others.
[00:17:18.340]And that's why some days,
[00:17:20.830]like I say, some days I think
[00:17:22.750]the right thing to do is to stand up for being gay.
[00:17:26.530]Sometimes the right thing to do, it feels like,
[00:17:29.010]is to just get back and get to work
[00:17:32.210]and ignore a slight or something,
[00:17:35.530]but you've gotta be prepared
[00:17:38.470]for the choices you make in your identities.
[00:17:41.040]For instance, in my working career at previous jobs,
[00:17:48.890]twice I went to human relations offices
[00:17:53.610]and complained about specific direct homophobia
[00:17:57.390]against me and against other gay people at work.
[00:18:00.260]Once I was also complaining about,
[00:18:02.500]about racial discrimination.
[00:18:05.530]In each of those cases, I was laid off from those jobs
[00:18:09.960]six to eight weeks later.
[00:18:11.960]Now, could be a coincidence.
[00:18:15.840]Clearly the layoff was for economic reasons.
[00:18:19.350]It wasn't for anything that had to do
[00:18:21.660]with company culture or corporate culture.
[00:18:25.570]But that was the day I decided
[00:18:28.770]that my identity was a moral person
[00:18:30.280]who couldn't stand this anymore.
[00:18:32.350]And other days, like I say,
[00:18:38.360]you put up with it, I guess.
[00:18:39.810]So it's,
[00:18:44.950]I think that the wrestling with identities
[00:18:47.750]is something we all should probably,
[00:18:51.900]skills we should be taught that
[00:18:54.300]we're not so much prepared for sometimes,
[00:18:57.990]because there are so many identities and so many,
[00:19:01.060]I call them conflicting loyalties,
[00:19:04.080]because any one of them at any,
[00:19:07.340]I'm loyal to being a journalist,
[00:19:08.800]the profession of journalism.
[00:19:10.210]I'm loyal to the profession of teaching.
[00:19:11.630]I'm loyal to being a moral person.
[00:19:13.420]I'm loyal to being a gay person.
[00:19:15.090]And there's a lot of conflict there at times.
[00:19:18.990]And how do we,
[00:19:23.140]is there a way to systemically
[00:19:25.550]deal with conflicting loyalties?
[00:19:29.890]I actually think that's an excellent question.
[00:19:32.900]So I'm gonna see if anybody on the panel
[00:19:36.010]wants to maybe respond to that.
[00:19:41.530]I may respond to it in my
[00:19:46.430]initial response to the first question.
[00:19:48.690]So it may be covered.
[00:19:50.890]For me personally, it's never a question of who I am,
[00:19:54.590]but who I am to other people.
[00:19:57.700]There's already a prescribed, written out
[00:20:03.740]script for who I am when I walk into a room
[00:20:07.370]just because I'm a Black man,
[00:20:10.337]and what that means and what that looks like
[00:20:11.860]and how people respond to me or react.
[00:20:15.400]And growing up,
[00:20:19.210]no matter what the situation may be,
[00:20:22.670]my mother was priming us for
[00:20:24.500]whatever that situation could be.
[00:20:26.300]If we were going into the store,
[00:20:28.060]here are the rules of engagement
[00:20:29.640]and how you're supposed to react
[00:20:31.330]or respond or handle something.
[00:20:33.120]Here's what you're supposed to do
[00:20:34.310]if you're going to someone's home,
[00:20:35.430]if you're going on a field trip,
[00:20:36.470]if you're walking down the street,
[00:20:38.990]these are the rules for your existence.
[00:20:43.128]And so even when we add in
[00:20:48.130]the additional identity of being gay
[00:20:50.190]and there's always the factor of me being Black first,
[00:20:56.510]a man second, gay third,
[00:20:58.630]and it's unfortunate that it's compartmentalized that way,
[00:21:03.360]but that is the level of survival for me.
[00:21:08.150]I think I could negotiate it
[00:21:09.760]and do negotiate it a little bit more differently
[00:21:13.340]when it comes to religion and faith.
[00:21:16.620]It's one topic that is very firm within my Black community
[00:21:21.250]and Black group of friends that doesn't necessarily
[00:21:24.760]come over into my queer spaces or when I'm within
[00:21:30.720]the LGBTQA community oftentimes
[00:21:33.410]because that's another form of oppression
[00:21:35.270]for LGBTQA individuals.
[00:21:38.980]So that, then, is over
[00:21:43.280]in my Black community.
[00:21:44.650]Being a man, I chose both undergrad and my masters
[00:21:51.930]in a traditionally female-dominated academic space.
[00:21:56.500]I often was the only male or one of the only males
[00:22:02.270]in my academic spaces
[00:22:05.920]and having conversations about our field
[00:22:08.540]or the profession or a subject matter.
[00:22:12.690]And it comes with a very different point of view.
[00:22:17.200]Being a cis man and the privilege that I hold
[00:22:20.860]and how I even carry myself in spaces,
[00:22:24.030]being a little bit more upfront
[00:22:27.310]with my opinions or my point of view on things.
[00:22:31.980]So for me, it's always navigating between it,
[00:22:37.400]kind of constantly switching even within moments
[00:22:40.620]or situations.
[00:22:43.470]But it's never a negotiation in like a broader sense
[00:22:48.850]that I kind of have with myself.
[00:22:50.500]It kinda just happens.
[00:22:57.180]Thank you for sharing that.
[00:23:00.150]One of the things that you mentioned
[00:23:02.960]was the compartmentalization of identities.
[00:23:05.780]And I do think with primary and secondary
[00:23:08.640]and multiple and intersecting identities,
[00:23:11.470]that they all come into play in different ways
[00:23:13.750]at different places.
[00:23:16.420]But we do have a society that focuses on
[00:23:20.530]a few primary identities,
[00:23:22.820]and also tends to look at everything in a binary.
[00:23:26.240]Even though we know that's not the way life is.
[00:23:30.350]But we're trained to think that way.
[00:23:32.830]So it makes sense for compartmentalization,
[00:23:38.590]especially when people work on particular issues,
[00:23:42.780]but at the same time,
[00:23:45.380]our identities are very intersectional.
[00:23:48.380]And so I'm wondering what you think about
[00:23:52.090]how your identities,
[00:23:56.160]live out in regards to intersectionality.
[00:24:00.120]And when we talk about compartmentalizing,
[00:24:02.670]it does make sense for some of our identities
[00:24:05.020]to have a primary in certain situations,
[00:24:09.000]but because there's such a focus on intersectionality now,
[00:24:13.050]I'm also wondering what you all think about
[00:24:15.610]in terms of is intersectionality essential to inclusion?
[00:24:30.440]I think intersectionality is crucial
[00:24:32.640]when it comes to inclusion,
[00:24:34.260]because of the way that identities work together.
[00:24:37.790]You can't just say, you're a gay man or a gay woman
[00:24:43.030]or you're Black or white,
[00:24:45.273]they're connected.
[00:24:47.320]When you're looking at diversity,
[00:24:48.530]you have to think of everyone's identities,
[00:24:51.950]because certain experiences are gonna bring
[00:24:55.900]so much to the conversation.
[00:24:59.790]And they're all gonna be different.
[00:25:01.220]And they affect each other, too.
[00:25:03.115]I think of the Civil Rights Movement
[00:25:07.150]and how that all played into each other,
[00:25:09.740]women's rights and
[00:25:14.580]gay rights and what was happening in the
[00:25:18.860]fight for civil rights, just in general
[00:25:21.610]is all connected.
[00:25:23.230]We all work together.
[00:25:24.280]And without those different parts
[00:25:25.770]and those different identities,
[00:25:29.010]none of it would have happened,
[00:25:30.600]without communication, without that intersectionality,
[00:25:34.690]it's just not possible.
[00:25:35.640]We have to have that community with each other
[00:25:38.260]and lift each other up and look at all those parts
[00:25:40.830]of our lives and understand how they work together,
[00:25:44.570]so that we can be as strong as we can.
[00:25:52.240]I guess this conversation brings to mind
[00:25:55.770]the project I mentioned earlier about
[00:25:57.552]the Black gay cartoonist, Matt Baker,
[00:26:00.050]and that particular project
[00:26:01.330]and my role in that,
[00:26:04.050]I mean, there's so many questions that arise
[00:26:07.180]in terms of writing across boundaries.
[00:26:09.080]And I am one of the writers on this project.
[00:26:11.620]And so writing about this historical figure
[00:26:14.590]has required a great deal of research,
[00:26:16.160]but I've also wanted to make sure
[00:26:17.970]that the artists who are both Black and gay,
[00:26:21.200]that it's their project,
[00:26:22.710]and that I'm in service to them to a certain degree,
[00:26:25.790]even though they brought me onto the project,
[00:26:27.150]because I am a writer, I'm old and they're young.
[00:26:30.420]And so there's been a lot of conversation
[00:26:35.200]that's been vital to the project through communication,
[00:26:39.200]through my looking things up and discussing it with them
[00:26:42.900]and them telling me about their personal experiences
[00:26:44.900]that has been enhanced and even more,
[00:26:47.790]become more urgent over the summer
[00:26:50.100]with the Black Lives Matter movement and with COVID
[00:26:53.860]and one of the artists lost his job and his brother died.
[00:26:57.530]I mean, there's just been so much upheaval
[00:27:01.890]in their lives that they're bringing to the project
[00:27:04.210]that has furthered the conversation,
[00:27:06.291]and it's been fascinating.
[00:27:09.660]And so, for example, we know that there's,
[00:27:13.810]we've kind of blocked out certain scenes,
[00:27:15.540]but then one of the artists, Angelo,
[00:27:17.640]was talking about how he saw photos of his mother
[00:27:19.890]from the 1950s, or his grandmother, rather.
[00:27:22.630]And the way she was dressed and how inspired he was
[00:27:26.010]and how impressed he was with her clothes.
[00:27:27.800]And I thought, well, so we discussed about how,
[00:27:29.890]well, Matt, then needs to have a scene with his mother
[00:27:33.170]so that you can bring these clothes.
[00:27:34.710]You can bring these reflections on your grandmother
[00:27:37.090]to that portrait.
[00:27:38.710]And so,
[00:27:40.620]and what's been exciting, flexible aspect of that
[00:27:45.860]is that there's so little history about Matt Baker.
[00:27:48.700]I mean, because it's the comic books and because so much
[00:27:51.720]of that work was anonymous to begin with,
[00:27:53.650]because he was,
[00:27:55.510]because so many Black artists
[00:27:56.900]of the 20th century have gotten lost historically.
[00:28:00.770]we're working from just a handful of photographs
[00:28:04.540]and the artwork itself and what we know about,
[00:28:07.050]what we can gather about the experience
[00:28:09.670]of him living in Harlem in the 1950s.
[00:28:13.700]And so it's,
[00:28:14.850]I think, to a certain degree that
[00:28:17.140]this is maybe what we're talking about
[00:28:18.860]is this level of sharing experience
[00:28:25.070]and sharing expertise and trying to come to
[00:28:28.280]a common understanding and in collaboration.
[00:28:34.470]I think knowing each other's stories is really essential
[00:28:38.240]to, one, knowing about our community
[00:28:41.320]but also helping to connect with people.
[00:28:46.360]I have lots of questions,
[00:28:48.690]but I just wanna stop and give an opportunity
[00:28:51.700]to anybody who is in the audience to ask questions, too.
[00:28:57.350]So, and it looks like we have one.
[00:29:03.060]This is following off of what Derrick said
[00:29:05.850]and wondering what the panel thinks about identities
[00:29:09.720]that others immediately see and react to,
[00:29:12.730]race, able-bodied, versus ones that we can conceal.
[00:29:17.650]It seems to,
[00:29:21.400]I'm not sure whether I'm supposed to say people's names,
[00:29:23.820]but it seems to this person that having
[00:29:26.720]one of your public identities
[00:29:28.493]being a marginalized one is a very different experience.
[00:29:33.476]And actually I do think visible
[00:29:35.870]and not so visible identities
[00:29:38.860]make a big difference to people's experiences.
[00:29:42.680]So what do you all think?
[00:29:47.870]And thank you for asking that question.
[00:30:02.520]I could jump in
[00:30:03.643]while others are gathering their thoughts.
[00:30:09.010]I guess for me, I mean,
[00:30:10.930]I was talking about how as a kid
[00:30:14.940]that how people would see me in terms of,
[00:30:20.220]I mean, again, there's the 1970s,
[00:30:21.900]so identity wasn't foremost in my thought.
[00:30:24.900]It wasn't even a concept that I was fully aware of,
[00:30:26.890]but I did know,
[00:30:28.400]I mean, we knew boy and girl,
[00:30:29.560]I didn't even necessarily know gay.
[00:30:30.960]I mean,
[00:30:32.186]so that kind of,
[00:30:36.700]that little girl that I was is obviously pretty deep inside
[00:30:41.960]in terms of how I present now
[00:30:45.550]with the gray beard and the bald head and all of that.
[00:30:48.300]And so,
[00:30:49.620]and also I was talking about illness.
[00:30:52.290]I mean, that's not something
[00:30:53.340]that necessarily presents itself,
[00:30:55.860]and it's not even necessarily something
[00:30:57.860]that I'm all that always comfortable in presenting
[00:31:00.876]or speaking to or identifying under
[00:31:03.930]because of the effect that it can have
[00:31:05.550]in terms of how other people interpret that,
[00:31:10.510]how it can affect your job,
[00:31:11.610]how it can affect the way people consider your capabilities,
[00:31:15.150]and so, so yeah, you do have to kind of weigh
[00:31:20.383]how much,
[00:31:21.790]like I was saying, you have the,
[00:31:23.840]before you have these avenues,
[00:31:25.730]this personal, reflective, intuitive avenue
[00:31:28.270]and then the one that you want to put forth,
[00:31:30.150]and it can be a matter of figuring out
[00:31:33.680]what is most most vital to whatever the circumstances are.
[00:31:39.570]And as a 52-year-old white man with an established career
[00:31:46.779]and a job as a professor, I mean,
[00:31:49.110]there are a great deal of privileges
[00:31:51.320]that come along with that
[00:31:52.760]that allow me to be more open in ways
[00:31:55.639]that the young artists I was talking about,
[00:31:58.970]for example, can't.
[00:32:00.930]They have to navigate differently.
[00:32:07.700]When we were talking about intersectionality, too,
[00:32:09.950]and then also the public identities
[00:32:12.140]and what people see first and react to first,
[00:32:15.670]it's just a good lesson, I think,
[00:32:17.590]that teaches us that everybody has,
[00:32:21.580]if we could remember that everybody has multiple identities
[00:32:24.330]and they're not all seen,
[00:32:25.970]particularly at our first, second,
[00:32:27.860]or third meeting with a person,
[00:32:29.990]and that we're always just making assumptions about people
[00:32:36.120]based on their observable first immediate identity,
[00:32:41.600]and then often what that means is stereotypes.
[00:32:45.440]So it's,
[00:32:47.800]we clearly need to be thinking about the fact that
[00:32:51.410]recognizing that we have so many multiple identities,
[00:32:54.400]many of which are not immediately seen,
[00:32:56.640]so does everybody else.
[00:32:58.190]And how do we,
[00:33:00.820]how do we teach,
[00:33:02.570]how do we teach students
[00:33:05.200]the best way to react to,
[00:33:09.290]in these sorts of situations?
[00:33:12.400]When I was really identifying with what Derrick was saying
[00:33:16.600]about people's primary identity,
[00:33:19.650]Black man, Black and male and secondary, tertiary identity,
[00:33:26.410]was gay,
[00:33:27.650]and I realize that
[00:33:34.100]a sign of how people react to our identities is
[00:33:37.570]when I was growing up and really
[00:33:39.970]all not that long ago still,
[00:33:43.880]people would think it's okay to tell racial jokes.
[00:33:48.620]And then finally, I think as society
[00:33:50.890]we reached a point where,
[00:33:52.150]well, if there's a Black person in the group,
[00:33:54.210]let's not tell a racial joke,
[00:33:57.470]but we still, but those same people
[00:34:01.160]who hold back on telling a racial joke
[00:34:03.530]because they realize that culturally
[00:34:05.370]that they're not supposed to do that,
[00:34:08.290]still tell gay jokes and homophobic jokes,
[00:34:11.530]because they're looking at a gay person
[00:34:13.440]and don't know that they're looking at a gay person,
[00:34:16.770]and so there's a true effect to these hidden identities,
[00:34:21.880]and people are still reacting,
[00:34:24.930]and there's pain involved
[00:34:30.620]in the identities that are hidden,
[00:34:33.060]and figuring out how to publicly react to those.
[00:34:39.030]Derrick, were you gonna say something?
[00:34:41.330]Yeah, and for me, of course,
[00:34:43.230]there are salient identities that
[00:34:48.030]I hold in more of a priority or think about differently
[00:34:52.880]or that...
[00:34:54.270]Let me rephrase this.
[00:34:55.946]There are the salient identities that I hold
[00:34:58.160]that, of course, shape my view point
[00:35:02.100]or how I experienced the world from my own lens
[00:35:06.620]or how I kind of just navigate or plan for my life.
[00:35:13.840]And then my point with the compartmentalizing
[00:35:17.940]of whatever identities it may be,
[00:35:21.990]with being Black, I technically am mixed.
[00:35:25.950]I'm one-fourth white.
[00:35:27.080]I have a white grandma.
[00:35:28.490]I have a whole white side of my family,
[00:35:30.990]but walking into a room, being a darker-skinned Black man,
[00:35:36.680]wouldn't assume it.
[00:35:38.020]That one-fourth white does not exist
[00:35:42.137]as a part of my true identity
[00:35:45.000]because it isn't seen, it doesn't compute,
[00:35:49.560]or how I talk about it, it's like one of those
[00:35:52.950]additional things.
[00:35:54.200]Love my grandma to death,
[00:35:55.430]favorite person in the entire world.
[00:35:59.060]But that piece doesn't get brought up often
[00:36:05.593]in day-to-day conversations.
[00:36:06.920]It's not a salient part of who I am.
[00:36:10.070]I also can't even imagine what that whiteness would be
[00:36:14.920]because of how I'm perceived and navigate the world,
[00:36:17.670]being Black.
[00:36:20.390]Being a man, I yeah, say I'm a man,
[00:36:23.257]but I'm also fairly feminine.
[00:36:27.210]With having long hair and just how I carry myself,
[00:36:30.670]people automatically assume I'm gay,
[00:36:33.250]or less of a man because of how I carry myself.
[00:36:37.960]So it just, it's how you navigate it.
[00:36:40.680]There's who I am to my core being.
[00:36:43.525]Other identities, like I also have
[00:36:46.680]a learning disability that shapes
[00:36:51.810]how I plan my day and the routines that I have
[00:36:54.517]and what I need to do just to get going and to function.
[00:37:00.780]But with that being invisible,
[00:37:03.490]it doesn't necessarily get brought up
[00:37:06.020]or something that people would think about.
[00:37:09.790]So it just kind of just dictates on how I navigate spaces
[00:37:14.380]or interact with people or how people perceive me.
[00:37:19.900]And that's kind of where I was going with that.
[00:37:24.960]Thank you.
[00:37:28.790]Our identities don't change,
[00:37:31.190]but our knowledge and our experience
[00:37:33.450]and our perception of our identities do.
[00:37:36.980]How have your perceptions of your identities
[00:37:40.120]evolved over time?
[00:37:48.970]If they have.
[00:37:49.840]Maybe they haven't (laughing).
[00:37:52.360]I feel like a lot of the identities
[00:37:54.220]became invented in my lifetime.
[00:37:56.210]And so,
[00:37:58.180]when,
[00:37:59.570]even when I was in college,
[00:38:01.070]this wasn't a conversation, really.
[00:38:03.080]I mean, or not among the people I was around.
[00:38:05.550]And so growing up in small town,
[00:38:08.370]and I mean I went to UNL as a student as well.
[00:38:11.860]And so I think,
[00:38:17.635]so there's,
[00:38:20.480]so as I've grown older,
[00:38:21.997]I've thought more about
[00:38:26.070]how those certain identities fit
[00:38:29.119]or don't fit and maybe fit differently the older you get.
[00:38:34.667]I mean, I guess I'm also,
[00:38:39.360]since I'm a writer, I mean I think artists,
[00:38:42.410]actors, writers, you take on identities
[00:38:45.340]throughout the various projects that you explore.
[00:38:48.970]I mean, maybe even as a reader, as a viewer,
[00:38:51.180]as somebody who engages with our
[00:38:54.490]shifting identity and perspective and perceptions
[00:38:58.260]and taking on different characters,
[00:39:02.160]or entertaining
[00:39:04.280]the thoughts and designs and attitudes
[00:39:07.350]of people who aren't you.
[00:39:10.180]And I think that's just part of the
[00:39:13.766](voice cutting out) process that we sometimes forget
[00:39:15.870]when we're locked into,
[00:39:17.640]we always explore how social media
[00:39:23.480]affects our interaction and all of that.
[00:39:25.110]And I think to a certain degree that can be narrowing.
[00:39:29.100]And so that to the point where
[00:39:31.180]you're taking on identities aren't yours,
[00:39:33.940]but are yours or based,
[00:39:37.110]or have slim evidence and saying things
[00:39:39.344]that are provoked as opposed to a response to the situation.
[00:39:44.490]And so I think there's something to that experience with art
[00:39:51.380]that's,
[00:39:52.860]that should ideally remind us of our humanity,
[00:39:58.550]and enrich our sense
[00:40:01.557]of other people and other experiences
[00:40:05.950]in a way that's
[00:40:08.510]has more depth and is more sophisticated than
[00:40:11.680]so many of the avenues we find ourselves following
[00:40:16.230]even without wanting to,
[00:40:18.020]I mean, society is a lot of noise
[00:40:20.610]and it's a lot of ugliness and it's a lot of frustration.
[00:40:23.310]It's a lot of stuff you wanna look away from.
[00:40:25.270]And so when you have opportunities
[00:40:28.647]to hear rich stories and to be moved
[00:40:33.180]by other people's experience
[00:40:34.337]and to feel empathy and sympathy,
[00:40:37.420]that's just gonna enrich your life experience
[00:40:41.350]and your sense of self.
[00:40:46.370]That's true.
[00:40:48.370]Does anybody else wanna respond to that?
[00:40:50.620]Or, again, anybody in the audience,
[00:40:54.140]if you have questions you can post those in chat
[00:40:57.040]or send them to myself or Mike.
[00:41:01.610]And in the meantime, I will ask ya another question,
[00:41:06.620]which is how do you think your identities
[00:41:12.220]impact your professional life?
[00:41:15.970]Whether that's how did you create your identity
[00:41:20.080]as a professional, given your identities?
[00:41:23.530]Or do you think that your own comfort
[00:41:27.190]with your identities impacts your career?
[00:41:38.120]This is one where I think
[00:41:42.880]those of us on the panel who are on the older side
[00:41:47.250]have clearly a better experience
[00:41:51.520]to think back and see how much
[00:41:58.950]we have gone through, how much has changed,
[00:42:00.620]how we have dealt with different situations.
[00:42:03.600]And I think it goes back to what Tim was just saying
[00:42:07.450]about the effect of society.
[00:42:09.750]I mean, I think society's effects on us
[00:42:12.520]and our identities are really absolutely incredible.
[00:42:16.874]And as much as we want to think that we're these
[00:42:21.850]wonderful, strong individual human beings,
[00:42:27.760]our social self is just, effected so much.
[00:42:32.600]I mean, I think about how much easier it is today
[00:42:35.510]to be a gay male than it was 30, 40 years ago.
[00:42:40.030]How much easier it is today to be a married gay male
[00:42:44.150]than it was 10 years ago, or I guess 10 years ago.
[00:42:48.640]So society has changed, thankfully,
[00:42:52.900]in some very significant ways, which make,
[00:42:55.940]which give us the opportunity
[00:42:57.630]to let those identities breathe and come out more
[00:43:02.660]and for us to blossom more.
[00:43:07.020]And I think the only thing I can say
[00:43:08.810]about it in relation to your question, Pat,
[00:43:10.660]is that looking back it gets better.
[00:43:14.600]Thankfully the long arc has been moral
[00:43:20.772]and has been more toward the good
[00:43:24.549]as slow as it sometimes goes.
[00:43:29.180]Yeah, that's one of the things that I truly appreciate
[00:43:31.730]about being older is I can like look back and go,
[00:43:35.380]even though we still have a ways to go,
[00:43:38.560]we've come a long way.
[00:43:40.437]And so that's very helpful.
[00:43:42.340]And I think that it's,
[00:43:44.750]I appreciate being able to experience
[00:43:48.020]and witness some of that change happening.
[00:43:52.670]Which, I'm gonna shift back to something
[00:43:55.990]that Emily said earlier on,
[00:43:57.940]which had to do with advocacy,
[00:44:00.720]and in a sense that's basic activism.
[00:44:05.440]And I think that on some level,
[00:44:07.760]all of you have done some sort of activism,
[00:44:10.980]whether that's on an individual level,
[00:44:13.520]speaking up for something or about something
[00:44:17.590]that needs to be changed or addressed,
[00:44:21.290]to also trying to make changes at a larger level,
[00:44:25.910]whether that's institutionally
[00:44:27.870]or through groups or conversations you have with people.
[00:44:34.570]Do you see yourselves as advocates or activists?
[00:44:38.980]And what do you think motivates you
[00:44:41.660]or helps fuel that passion or that drive
[00:44:47.210]to help create change?
[00:44:56.250]I think I definitely now see myself
[00:44:58.510]more as a advocate and getting more
[00:45:01.610]definitely into the activist role,
[00:45:03.170]being definitely more engaged,
[00:45:05.450]looking for opportunities to speak up,
[00:45:07.400]doing my research and trying to inform,
[00:45:10.210]certainly my team,
[00:45:11.320]but especially those who are closer to me
[00:45:13.000]and having those conversations just on a personal level,
[00:45:17.330]with the hope that they go out
[00:45:18.620]and also educate other people.
[00:45:20.120]And it kinda creates that chain reaction,
[00:45:24.430]but it's something I definitely try to grow,
[00:45:27.020]and kind of back into the last question,
[00:45:29.180]I know I'm not very old or have a lot of experience,
[00:45:32.770]in terms of any kind of career,
[00:45:34.380]but I think certainly when it comes to
[00:45:36.360]why I was picked as captain on my team,
[00:45:38.160]it's because I lived my life very openly and very genuinely
[00:45:42.500]and try and be the best person that I can,
[00:45:45.790]for my community, and not just myself
[00:45:48.880]or my team and think about
[00:45:50.550]the wider reach that I have
[00:45:52.660]as a Nebraska student athlete.
[00:45:54.970]Because, even though I'm in a small sport
[00:45:57.180]we do, having that tagline attached to us,
[00:45:59.887]it's automatically looked at with
[00:46:04.010]a little more of a microscope,
[00:46:05.290]but,
[00:46:08.700]yeah.
[00:46:10.010]Well, and what I'd like to say, too,
[00:46:12.620]is to acknowledge that you have had a career,
[00:46:15.520]it's just not quite as long maybe.
[00:46:18.530]'Cause you have a career as a student athlete,
[00:46:21.210]as just, really, I also see being a student
[00:46:25.120]as students' careers.
[00:46:27.720]Because it's like your job to be a student, so yeah.
[00:46:35.110]There's some career experience in there, but yeah.
[00:46:42.490]To answer the what fueled it part of your question,
[00:46:46.210]I honestly think that a lot of the fuel for
[00:46:48.910]how I deal with life and my identities now
[00:46:51.890]is the fact that I went to a parochial school,
[00:46:54.830]and that while they thought they were teaching me
[00:46:57.970]the horrors of anything except heterosexual marriage,
[00:47:02.200]what they were really teaching me was
[00:47:03.950]how to be a good person.
[00:47:06.010]And what is right and what is wrong.
[00:47:09.550]And I still believe
[00:47:15.220]that I'm carrying those teachings forward still.
[00:47:17.800]And that was the initial fuel.
[00:47:20.290]Like I say, despite what they thought they were teaching.
[00:47:24.730]I think I've been an accidental, anxiety-ridden activist,
[00:47:30.080]if I've been an activist.
[00:47:31.460]I think I,
[00:47:33.094]and even today I'm still surprised when
[00:47:35.420]something I've said or done
[00:47:37.210]seems to start all or set people off
[00:47:40.980]thinking about things that seem perfectly normal
[00:47:44.770]and rational to me,
[00:47:45.770]but it's something that I,
[00:47:49.170]the people aren't comfortable with or something.
[00:47:51.230]I mean, before I was a professor here
[00:47:56.110]I was the editor of an alternative Newsweekly,
[00:47:58.740]a couple of them, actually, in Omaha.
[00:48:01.420]And it would always surprise me when we would
[00:48:06.380]publish articles that we thought were interesting
[00:48:08.230]that were the right thing to do.
[00:48:11.152]That were a kind of advocacy,
[00:48:12.589]and seemed like it wasn't harming anybody,
[00:48:16.970]but was only helping people.
[00:48:18.370]The fact that you'd have advertisers pull
[00:48:20.450]or that you'd have readers object
[00:48:21.790]or you'd have the stores and restaurants
[00:48:26.310]that carried the newspaper would complain.
[00:48:28.250]And it was always,
[00:48:29.460]and I don't know why I was so surprised by that
[00:48:32.610]again and again and again,
[00:48:33.870]but I tend to be,
[00:48:36.830]you just think that, well, we are,
[00:48:42.000]we've come to this point.
[00:48:43.100]It's the 21st century.
[00:48:44.150]We can have these conversations.
[00:48:47.580]We've had these conversations before,
[00:48:49.323]but it's always surprising when you realize
[00:48:52.710]that exactly how conservative
[00:48:54.869]some aspects of your own experience,
[00:48:59.573]of the people you're around
[00:49:01.070]and the societies that you're part of
[00:49:02.497]and the communities are actually
[00:49:06.340]uncertain of how to navigate these conversations.
[00:49:13.300]Yeah, I actually feel like I'm very privileged
[00:49:16.530]to be in an educational setting,
[00:49:18.370]because I've been able to do work
[00:49:21.120]based on a value system that I believe in.
[00:49:23.720]And actually, I think that's where
[00:49:25.600]a lot of my own activism and advocacy comes from
[00:49:30.130]is also growing up Catholic,
[00:49:32.220]but also in a military family
[00:49:34.256]where the the belief that we were taught
[00:49:38.060]was the reason for the military is to protect people
[00:49:41.780]and to protect our human rights.
[00:49:44.060]And so I,
[00:49:48.150]yeah, there's always good things and bad things,
[00:49:50.670]but I think you can teach values without religion,
[00:49:55.630]but I do think that that's part of
[00:49:58.860]what gets instilled in you, at least hopefully,
[00:50:02.589]that's part of what gets instilled with you
[00:50:05.600]with education that incorporates a value system to it.
[00:50:12.879](voices muffling)
[00:50:14.215]Go ahead.
[00:50:15.048]Go ahead.
[00:50:15.881]No, go ahead.
[00:50:16.714]I was just gonna mention, again,
[00:50:17.547]just for those who don't know,
[00:50:19.320]we're celebrating 50 years since Lou Crompton taught
[00:50:23.460]the first LGBTQ interdisciplinary,
[00:50:26.170]the first interdisciplinary LGBTQ studies course
[00:50:29.680]in the country.
[00:50:30.513]I think that is possibly one of the first of any kind.
[00:50:33.100]We're sort of looking into that research as well.
[00:50:34.890]But so that was in 1917.
[00:50:37.157]And so I've been teaching the introduction to
[00:50:42.600]LGBTQ literature this semester.
[00:50:45.700]And so we've been looking at the history, specifically,
[00:50:47.860]of the English department from Lou Crompton's work
[00:50:50.200]and on through Barbara DiBernard,
[00:50:52.840]and to hear their stories and to read their essays
[00:50:55.830]and their reflections,
[00:50:57.630]it really does make me realize how privileged I am
[00:51:01.750]for the work that they did to build those paths,
[00:51:05.903]and the amount of bravery that took
[00:51:08.390]and the push back that they got,
[00:51:11.311]and how many years that they had to endure that
[00:51:15.160]for us to get to the place where it is today,
[00:51:18.370]where I can offer these courses and they can be supportive
[00:51:20.680]and the university supports them,
[00:51:22.630]and they can reach out to students where,
[00:51:25.020]I mean, I've been amazed with my students this semester
[00:51:27.790]who have spoken about their own experiences
[00:51:29.960]and their own perspectives
[00:51:31.150]and how they've engaged with the history.
[00:51:33.450]And it's been very exciting.
[00:51:40.100]We are down to about six minutes.
[00:51:43.463]So if no one else has any other questions,
[00:51:47.530]I have a final question.
[00:51:52.150]So we're always in the process
[00:51:54.320]of creating who we are and creating our lives.
[00:51:58.080]So, given your identities and your experiences,
[00:52:01.546]what final thoughts or words of guidance
[00:52:05.110]would you share with a younger you?
[00:52:07.990]And or would you give that same advice to other people?
[00:52:23.200]Or if you just have any final words you'd like to share.
[00:52:27.640]I know that was a pretty deep request there.
[00:52:32.210]Yeah, I would say
[00:52:40.753]I've spent much of my young life
[00:52:44.774]taking on the perceptions of other people
[00:52:49.257]and what it means
[00:52:52.340]or what that predefined script for life is.
[00:52:56.379]This is what it means to be a man.
[00:52:57.280]This is what it looks like to be gay.
[00:52:59.130]This is what it is like to be Black.
[00:53:03.520]And now,
[00:53:06.760]as I am 25 and in a different stage in my young adulthood
[00:53:13.030]trying to reassess what those scripts are
[00:53:19.990]and defining those identities for my own self,
[00:53:25.157]and I like, that's an, ever-growing just personal thing
[00:53:30.020]because there's so many influences
[00:53:33.040]from your own family, from the community you live in,
[00:53:35.630]the schools you go to, the profession you're in,
[00:53:39.240]and what all of those things look like,
[00:53:41.660]sound like, are like for you.
[00:53:44.620]And so that's what I would say.
[00:53:48.010]That's kinda my final wrap up thought.
[00:53:52.080]Thank you, Derrick.
[00:53:53.980]I would say write it all down.
[00:53:55.300]I mean, I would say expression is
[00:53:58.990]important to your sense of self and your development
[00:54:02.160]and that even if it doesn't go anywhere
[00:54:05.280]beyond the page that you write it down on,
[00:54:07.177]just the act of writing and thinking about it
[00:54:09.200]and putting things into word and considering it
[00:54:13.060]so carefully can have a profound effect on your life.
[00:54:23.190]I think I would tell myself that
[00:54:26.190]there's always gonna be people like you
[00:54:29.560]who are gonna support you wherever you end up
[00:54:32.670]or that you can go and find those people.
[00:54:34.320]'Cause that's something I had a hard time.
[00:54:36.260]When I was coming out,
[00:54:37.680]I didn't necessarily have the best
[00:54:40.710]group of people around me to be supportive
[00:54:42.880]and figure out,
[00:54:44.140]and help me figure out who I was and be there.
[00:54:47.220]But now, going off to college, I think,
[00:54:49.300]was one of the best things I did,
[00:54:50.390]especially going far away from home,
[00:54:53.100]because I found my found family.
[00:54:55.740]And to me they're even more important
[00:54:58.130]and there's a deeper connection than my blood family.
[00:55:01.410]I think that's just something I wanna remind,
[00:55:03.740]would remind my younger self or anyone else
[00:55:07.410]is that there's always gonna be people
[00:55:08.860]who are gonna support you and love you.
[00:55:12.210]And it may just take a little time to find them,
[00:55:13.730]but they're always going to be out there.
[00:55:17.383]And I would say my advice to my younger me
[00:55:19.610]was you didn't need to go into therapy
[00:55:22.500]when you were in college
[00:55:23.670]to try to deal with multiple identities.
[00:55:25.710]It's okay.
[00:55:28.035](laughing)
[00:55:29.520]Yeah.
[00:55:32.450]I do think that finding someplace you belong,
[00:55:35.210]and that includes feeling like you belong to yourself,
[00:55:38.330]is really, really important.
[00:55:40.340]So I wanna thank you all again
[00:55:43.000]for being willing to share your stories.
[00:55:46.380]I also want to thank everybody who attended
[00:55:49.590]and to listen to your stories,
[00:55:53.160]and I'm gonna do something at the end
[00:55:56.510]that I should have done at the beginning,
[00:55:58.060]which is also to do a land acknowledgement.
[00:56:01.410]And partly because we're a land grant institution,
[00:56:04.790]but also because we have grown up in a country
[00:56:08.440]with a very mixed history,
[00:56:11.310]and we're on grounds that belong to the ancestral lands
[00:56:17.140]of the first people who occupied this area,
[00:56:20.250]that we now call Nebraska.
[00:56:22.720]So just wanting to acknowledge that and pay respect.
[00:56:27.190]And one of the things I've learned about Nebraska
[00:56:33.630]is there were originally 15 tribes here,
[00:56:36.410]but there's now six,
[00:56:38.800]which is the Omaha, Winnebago, Ponca, Iowa,
[00:56:41.860]Santee Sioux, and the Sac, and Fox.
[00:56:44.520]So I apologize for not getting that done in the beginning,
[00:56:49.820]but I wanted to do that.
[00:56:51.740]And again, there's also been a lot of good feedback,
[00:56:56.010]panelists, in the chat.
[00:56:58.340]Thanking you for sharing your stories and your thoughts.
[00:57:01.860]And,
[00:57:03.840]basically you're all fabulous.
[00:57:06.500]So with that, I hope everybody has an excellent evening,
[00:57:12.450]and hopefully you'll be able to make it
[00:57:14.690]to our next panel on intersectionality.
[00:57:18.690]Thank you, Pat. Thanks, Pat.
[00:57:20.840]And everybody, we will be announcing
[00:57:22.480]the intersectionality panels
[00:57:24.440]after the first of the year.
[00:57:25.690]We'll have one hopefully January or early February
[00:57:28.220]and then another one in March.
[00:57:30.000]And this was sponsored by
[00:57:31.540]the Chancellor's Diversity Commissions.
[00:57:33.160]Again, thank you for everybody attending
[00:57:34.950]and have a great break and a wonderful evening.
[00:57:40.610]Thank you. Bye everyone.
[00:57:41.677]Bye everyone.
[00:57:42.616]Bye bye.

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